Hate and a Blade...

Hate and a Blade...
Am I the only one...
that feels this way...
Blinded by this negativity.
Why is it that my veins are ruined,
All they can see is Beauty,
What about my inner scars,
don't be blinded by my pretty smile...
Sorry but I'll diStant Me,
I need need this...
I'll be your only stranger...
Surrounded by four walls,
It's closing in...
Why can't I explain this horror,
this terror from in...
My inner core feels like an time bomb...
Let me hit it on my own.
I suffer too much,
but I don't care,
on this Road to Redemption...
Am I an Cave Beast,
Living on The Edge of Chaos...
Should I just play with or just do my own thing...
Because all I ever had is my Numbness...
Another Descendant Ruined...
Don't follow me cuz I'm no Role Model...
I'm an Black Rose...

Echoes of Numbness...

Echoe, Echoe...
I have my heart in two halves...
I got no feelings...
Two pieces hanging from my eyelids.
Numbness are taking over.
Why?
I seem to always end up here,
Numb,
I'm way too young,
It's not unfair.
So what's my next poison - that's fair!
because it can't be Love...
No Drugs,
Oh Damn!
Disturbing that being Me:
Seems ending up in a dumpster...
How ironic...
Feels like I'm stuck in Thursday...
You've already seen my other side...
Drunk and uncertain...
Red Wine and Mota's!
Feel like I loss sight of time...
Got my emotions gone 28hours...
I'm an Insomniac,
I Sleep Walk...
because my mind is leading Me,
to a better place!
Echoes of Numbness...
I clearly need to dumb this!
You need to leave this numbness.
because I made a promise,
and I'm keeping it Permanent...
I feel like everyone -
can see this...
can see this: open scars!
It's official and its brutal...
Hopeless and Unnoticed...
Am I just a verb to the:
infinite Misfits and Mistakes,
that wander this Earth
Wondering:
If this is the Greatest Mistake Ever!
To Accept that we'll:
Conquer Greatness!
AND
that numbness itself  will Echoe...